It has been a month now since Emily passed away. My memory is still full of her life. I am still seeing her sitting, sleeping on the Sofa, laying on bed, slowly walking up stairs. On the other hand, I don't want to talk much about Emily. Each time I talked, it would make me sad and make me cry. I really hope that time can roll back to the college days, or to the days when Audrey was just born. Qiyun were so nice, I could never forget.

I was feeling sad; I also felt defeated.  Not only Emily lost her battle to cancer; I am also another loser. I have tried very hard to help Emily on this battle, but we lost. Because Emily and I did not tell other people about her illness. The only people knew about her disease were living quite far away, like Emily's mom or my brother. So Emily and I like two person team working together against this disease. Now one person is gone. I am the only person left to face the defeat.